Weeks 19 and 20- I’m Done!

Why have I been chronically behind in writing my blog?

Why do I obsess and re-write my DMP over and over…..taking a light year to “get it just right”?

What am I pretending not to know?

Here’s the thing.  My mind and my heart are exploding with insight and epiphanies lately.  I have experienced challenge, loss and rebirth.  This course has changed my life – there’s no going back.  I BELIEVE I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. I BELIEVE I will manifest my DMP.  For the first time in 58 years I BELIEVE I know my purpose, my Dharma.  And finally – I’ve gotten off my butt the past 2 weeks and started taking action on the things that will fund my SMART goals.  It’s exhilarating,.  It’s FUN.  And news flash….people are showing up effortlessly and responding positively, almost all the time.

So after stressing and procrastinating and worrying about writing my blog every week – and often being late – I’M DONE.  My old blueprint doesn’t get to dictate things anymore, like why I must pick some profound, perfectly-worded, inspiring topic each week so that everyone understands me perfectly, are impressed with my use of the English language, whatever.  Years of feeling this need to be perfectly understood all the time has sadly caused a previously articulate person to gradually talk and write WAY too much…to loathe the whole process …..and hence – to procrastinate whenever I’m given a mandate to do so.  SO……a bit of honesty here…..I’ve dreaded this blogging requirement every week since we started this course.  Notice I combined Week’s 19 and 20 because I was behind.  Why?  I’ve been pondering for 8 days what topic I should write on.  I’ve started and deleted more than once.  I’ve been on a big pity party because life has been hard lately, throwing me huge curve balls – challenges to test whether or not I could “keep up” with the daily exercises, causing me to observe and override my old perfectionist, controlling crap.  And guess what?  I’m still here, doing my best.  And better for it.

SO….allow me to publicly THANK YOU, Mark and Davene, for requiring us to blog, engage and mastermind in the members area.  I still babble when I’m occasionally called upon to talk during a mastermind segment after the webinar ( I just told you I was speechless…..and I meant it.  Then I babbled anyway).

Lori

 

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19 thoughts on “Weeks 19 and 20- I’m Done!

  1. Jeanne Doucette

    great blog! I enjoyed reading your comments, your total transparency and honesty! good for you! that old blueprint really rears it’s head! You sound like you have such a sense of accomplishment so I’m happy for you for catching up and staying with it!!

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    1. Lori Post author

      Thank you, Jason. I feel the same about you, having visited your blog recently. I am excited to continue to visit and read your awesome posts. I am a fellow weight loss coach and am SO proud of your inspiring accomplishments.

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  2. Claes

    Hey Lori, great post – I really enjoyed it and could relate to a lot in it!
    Isn´t it just liberating to stop demanding perfection of ourselves and just “settle” for AWESOME???

    Lady, You´re a miracle and I´m so happy to be on the same planet as Your AWESOMENESS!!!

    Mahalo, I appreciate You!

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    1. Lori Post author

      Man, stop demanding perfection of ourselves….that’s a big one for me. Thank you, Claes. I feel the same about you!

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  3. Dominique Faillard

    Great post Lori. I’m recognizing in you. And every day too, I’m doing my best to still be there in this fantastic journey : the MKMMA with those fabulons guys around Mark and Fab Davene. Thanks for the inspiration you give to all of us !

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    1. Lori Post author

      Dominique – you ARE doing your best and it’s really wonderful. Every week I see so much enlightenment out of everyone continuing to write. And the insight gained with each new MK lesson, each new exercise, each new chapter of Og. Pretty profound.

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  4. Dominique Faillard

    Great post Lori. I’m recognizing in you. And every day too I am doing my best to still be there in this fantastic journey : the MKMMA with those fabulous guys around Mark and Fab Davene. Thanks for the inspiration you gives to all of us !

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    1. Lori Post author

      That’s awesome, Debbie! You rock….and Happy Birthday this month! How happy are you to feel the way you do as you celebrate this wonderful age?

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    1. Lori Post author

      Thank you, Davene. By the way-I REALLY wish I could be at the live event this year. Next year is on the latest version of my DMP….along with referring 50 people to this course in the Fall. 🙂

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