As I begin writing this post for the second time today (yes that’s correct, the second time)….. I am excited to announce that I’ve just completed my first 24-hr period of no negative thoughts! Why is this even more exciting than 15 minutes ago when I attempted to publish my first post? Because having not saved my draft first, everything was lost when I hit the “publish” button. And I have to say, I thought I had expressed some pretty insightful things in the first version of today’s blog 🙂 But here’s the best part – even at that moment of realization that my post was lost in the ethers, I didn’t get mad or think anything truly negative. There was just a split second of disappointment, after which I quickly followed with a small sigh and said, “oh well, I’ll just need to re-write it”. That’s it! This was in stark contrast to the @!!*@#!!@!#@ that may have come out of my mouth a week ago if this had happened.
So I was commenting on how many times I had to restart the Mental Diet this week on Monday – Thursday, though it was fewer and fewer times each day as the week went on. I was actually stunned the first couple of days to discover how often a negative thought enters my mind or comes flying haphazardly out of my mouth – typically masquerading as sarcasm or snide humor. I have always thought of myself as a very positive person, an eternal optimist. So this was very enlightening. I was struck by the realization that sometimes we’re totally unaware of our bad habits. This may seem like I’m stating the obvious, but before this week I would have told you I was fully aware of my bad habits and that I knew exactly what I needed to do to change them. So this one caught me by surprise (what an ego!). But here’s what I know. As I internalize the messages in Og’s Scroll 1 – “my bad habits must be destroyed and new furrows prepared for good seed” and “only a habit can subdue another habit” – and apply the Law of Substitution….I win! I read Emmett Fox and became obsessed with completing the 7 Day Mental Diet. Between this, Emerson’s Law of Compensation (OMG I love that), reading Scroll 2 over and over, as well as reading and listening to Parts 6 & 7 of the Master Keys – seriously, you can’t emerge from this without being changed forever. So I can’t wait to emerge from each new day without a negative thought! That is powerful.
A final thought:
We are 7 weeks into MKMMA and I am already a changed person. There’s no going back. I am more alive, awake, have more love in my heart and more excitement for the future than ever before. I believe I can have more positive impact on the world than I ever imagined in my 57 years. And last but not least….the connection I feel to all 300+ of my fellow MKMMA members all over the world – whom I’ve never met, yet we exist in perfect harmony with this common purpose – is nothing short of amazing. I understand the true meaning of a Mastermind Alliance. I feel it. It’s profound.